On days like this I feel confused. i don't know what is going on around me anymore. School problems, family problems, work problems, and relationship problems. I am so overwhelmed with everything. I am now realizing through situations who my real friends are. I have made some rock hard mistakes that may bruise me for the rest of my life but i can't change them. I am so sick and tired of school, mainly english class. It seems like we do the same things every day. IT'S SOOOO BORING! maybe it's me. Maybe I have a problem with my self and that's the reason why I am annoyed with everything and everybody. I feel like I don't know who I am, I don't know what I am supose to do to think the way to react. NOTHING! I am not me. But who knows what's wrong. To put the icing on the cake this whole relationship thing I am goin through is only making matters worse. I feel like I want to give up I don't want to have a part of him anymore but then I don't want to just let five years go to waste. I am confused and stuck. I try to think things through and not worry about other situations besides my school work but my mind just seems to wonder back everytime. ughh am I going CRAZY? It's like I want to be happy and everyday I put up a front and smile so no one can no I am sad but when I go home, I am jus t so lonely.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
CoNfUsEd!!!
On days like this I feel confused. i don't know what is going on around me anymore. School problems, family problems, work problems, and relationship problems. I am so overwhelmed with everything. I am now realizing through situations who my real friends are. I have made some rock hard mistakes that may bruise me for the rest of my life but i can't change them. I am so sick and tired of school, mainly english class. It seems like we do the same things every day. IT'S SOOOO BORING! maybe it's me. Maybe I have a problem with my self and that's the reason why I am annoyed with everything and everybody. I feel like I don't know who I am, I don't know what I am supose to do to think the way to react. NOTHING! I am not me. But who knows what's wrong. To put the icing on the cake this whole relationship thing I am goin through is only making matters worse. I feel like I want to give up I don't want to have a part of him anymore but then I don't want to just let five years go to waste. I am confused and stuck. I try to think things through and not worry about other situations besides my school work but my mind just seems to wonder back everytime. ughh am I going CRAZY? It's like I want to be happy and everyday I put up a front and smile so no one can no I am sad but when I go home, I am jus t so lonely.
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Key ...I feel you 100%... Im here whenever you need some one .. we can help each otha thats why we are so close like dat ... love you SSSO sooo much...and remember just look ahead you have great things comming to you.
ReplyDeleteaw baby...i understand what you mean too...i have a lot going on too and i feel a lot like you...im not happy at all this year.
ReplyDeleteHi Miss Salaam:
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that you're having a tough go of it lately.
Have you spoken to your mentor yet?
Have you started journaling in tandem with blogging? You might want to consider putting stuff like this in a private place, perhaps away from the eyes of the English teacher who perpetuates such a boring class :)
I really do want to help you and make Senior Project a pleasant, stimulating experience.